NBTD

Thursday comes..

"Why wont you update ur blog?" asked Pisal. Hurm, I was a bit busy with my final presentation preparation and with my other problems. First problem was with my car. white exhaust smoke came out and the battery died. Both of these problems have already been taken care of, at the expense of more than a couple of hundred ringgits.. *sigh*

Then there was the prob with my gf (u guys can refer to my last post). I went to Melaka last weekend to pujuk her, and fortunately her emotions settled down. I picked her at her house, and then went to MP (obviously there's no other place to go) and watched Cinta & Eragon at the cinema.

Cinta was great. It was very nice indeed, the best malay movie I've seen since PGL. The cinematic was great (almost commercial-like), the soundtracks came out at the correct time, and the storyline was touching and does reflect real-life stories. Not to forget the cast was excellent and their acting was convincing, but i was disappointed by Sharifah Amani's performance. I don't know whether her character was supposed to be like that, or is just her lack of experience.

Eragon was also nice, a story about a farmer boy, who's destiny was to become a dragon rider and save the people from their cruel king. Interesting story i sould say, as I've always been fascinated by fantasy stories with magic and dragons. By the way, I just knew from my aunt that the story was from book one of the Inheritance Trilogy by Christopher Paolini. So most probably there's be 2 more sequels to this movie, and I'll be longing to watch it.

Back to me and my gf, in between the two movies (Cinta was at 12:20pm and Eragon was at 4:20pm) we ate at the Chicken Rice Shop. I know she wasn't fond of chicken rice, but that day she tolerated and said okay. So we ordered two meals, one for each of us. Due to the fact that she doesn't like chicken rice much, she didn't get to finish her meal. So i ate and finished her leftover chickens. I didn't eat her rice though coz it was already contaminated with sambal =P

After Eragon, we went back to her house. I initially planned to return back to Shah Alam that night, but she insisted that i spend the night there. I was also quite tired, so i agreed. I borrowed her big brother's clothes for the night. Around 9pm we had dinner at home (together with her parents), and not long after that i went to bed coz of my eyes can hardly open at that time..

The next morning, she made breakfast for me, and at 9am i went back to shah alam..she wanted me to stay longer, but i need to pick up Aini & Yayi at the shah alam bus station in sec 17. They were to arrive at 12:30 pm, but due to some delays (a passenger wanted to be dropped in Seremban), they arrived at a quarter past 1. That afternoon the three of us went to Midvalley to meet up with my aunt and her children to have lunch and do some shopping.

It was a tiring weekend. Next weekend will be more tiring coz there will be a family gathering here at my aunt's house. All the families from my mum's side will attend. It'll sure be happening, with more that 30 ppl eating and drinking and talking and god knows what else.hehe..

I think this is enuff for this entry, so till next time. *waves hand*

Regret

Most people tend to do mistakes whether they realize it or not. Some mistakes can hurt other people unintentionally, and they can be emotionally or mentally. Emotional pain is more bitter than physical pain..and i dont quite know how to put it in words..

Yesterday, I realized that all this time, i've been hurting my gf. I've been taking her for granted, and not giving much attention to her. She told me all the little things that she's been keeping inside..little for me, but significant enough for her to make her question whether we were meant for each other or not..

I've been blind for a long time, blind to see how she needs for my attention, blind to see what she's been through, blind to see what may happen in our future if i ignored all the matters that seem small to me.

I've only been thinking of myself, and cared little of what she feels. Its not like I've never been hurt by her, but all the time i've was hurt, i'd hurt her back..more. Yes i know and i admit it, i was being selfish and egoistic, and i really regret that.. "Regret? Ur regret only lasts for a couple of days or more, then u'll forget it and treat me as usual..Do i need to beg you for attention every time things like this happen?Every 2 or 3 days?"..that was what she said, and its more or less true. *sigh*

I dont want to lose her..i'm afraid to lose her. I really love her deep in my heart, and somehow i kept forgetting about her when i have other agendas that's more important to me. Its been 5 years, and i know she's been heart broken more than a dozen of times..if i were to continue our relationship like this, i dont know how long she can last..i need to change..soon..now..

God please help me.