holding back tears

i hate nagging
coz i hate being nagged at
but i juz cant help it
coz it hurts so much when i think about it
i try to convey it clearly
but is it so hard to understand?
until i hav to say it over and over again
is it tiring hearing me complaint?
i guess so, coz i'm tired myself
i was told not to think much about it
but that's the same as telling me to become ignorant of my own feelings

can i be cold to people?
yes i can
can i ignore people?
yes i can
can i forget about people?
yes i can
can i be insensitive to others?
yes i can
but i cant be like that to u
and i dont know y

i'm selfish i'm oversensitive
i know that
i hate myself
but like u said: who doesnt?

i wish i can make things simpler and not complicated
and i'll try to
eventhough it hurts